when a certain people are not in the same boat as you, a feeling of being left out will be a suffering. how could I wish to go through the daily hassle together with them. Leading to always having the mindset that day after day our gap will grow larger and larger, leaving at the end of the day a question. Keeping this thought off will just make myself ask, will this happen? This uncertainty will stay forever. I guess no one have an answer to this. I might have made a mistake along the way and regret, but we can’t turn back time but have to face it. Life is full of regrets, we can’t run away from it, it just happen over and over again in our life. I wonder why am I feeling this way when I’m suppose to be happy. I didn’t expect this kind of feeling to pop out neither do I like it, it’s not right. This sucks!
for now I will stick with the plans we have, not wanting it to be just memories.
